Wed, 21 Feb 2007 04:00:30 GMT

okay so i solved all my problems. yess on my own . my biffle is verry upset but i still have her. shes my best frend & shes strong enough. guys are dickheads. watever. i am dying my hair .. TOMOROO ! ahh im so nervous. my shoulders fixed i have to sleep with it up for it to be ok& gheat it every once in a while .. but not broken =] im probly going to see audrey tomoro after my hair cause my whole familys guna wana see it. grama catalano died so i gota go to the wake and all that jazz this week =[ work sucks. & so does lindenhurst but hey i got a year left [ if i dnt have to go to summer school ] my other frend .. gave me the time of day finally ( yesterday ) we discussed our problems. i decided i dnt want to be frends with any girls or guys in lindenhurst because i dont like them so they dont like me .. woopdie fucking doo =] .. i loveeeeeee life <333

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Sun, 18 Feb 2007 06:57:33 GMT

yea .. well i made this thing so i could vent. see im a writer but i cant write anything on paper cuz i dnt need my mom complaining that i never tlk to her about my problems. so i made this thing. so i could vent. youll catch me on good days and bad days. on bad days i suggest you stay away unless you plan on listening and helping. okay ?

#1.) I have this frend who, i wnt mention there name but she has this boyfrend now, and according to me, her " best frend " i think shes changed since they strted to go out. no one else sees it but i do. ive told her she changed but she doesnt know how. she changed into him. he is not my best frend. i want my best frend back. hes cheating on her for the second time now & i told her bc i was the 1 who found out & now shes not talking to me about it. youd think oh best frends always there for eachother well apparently im not good enough to be there for her & honestly? our relationship isnt as close as it used to be for me to trust her with anything. i feel like im holding on to nothing & being told to let go. i hate change.

#2 i think my mother caused me to sprain my neck, maybe my shoulder. i dont kno but both are causing me extreme pain. =[

#3 i hate shool and i hate lindenhurst. its drama infested & i cnt take it there no more. i cant wait to get the fuck out of here.

#4 i really hate frends that put other friends before you. especially when youve been trying for weeks. every time you wana see the person its like okay cool then the time comes around and your busy ? fuckkk that. i give up. oh !& the wrst when a guy who tlks shit about you is your #1 prority .. thats so completly beyond cool !

5.) honestly i dont give a fuck who gets mad at me about this. the truth hurts but it needs to be said & if im the only 1 who has the nerve to say something. then so be it. what have i got to lose ?

6.) im dying my hair on wednesday .. dirty golden blonde .. & i have to cut 4 inches. im nervous but its probly the best thing im going to do durng this wonderful week off =/

7. im miss my niece <3 audrey =[ maybe ill go see her this week. ohh family .. soo exciting .. ughhh

8. im going to be a brides maid in 22 days for my cousin. fucking grand. the ambulance will be at the reception.

9. I FUCKING HATE PRETEND SLUTS .. you know the ones that get drunk have sex & then pretend like there addicted and they do it all the time... like there whores? well no ur not. dream on asshole. masybe where some clothes while you are at it that would be great !

okay im going to go now .. maybe talk to melissa .. i have work 11-5 tomoro maybe ill jump off a cliff then .. no j/k .. leave me some advice. nighttt <3

LiVe tO dReaM

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